I so fail at this "closing my journal" issue. Think of me as your divorced wife who says she will never speak to you again, but still rings you up every month to sort out the paperwork. AS MUCH AS I WANT TO MEAN IT, THERE ARE STRINGS. STRINGS!

Anyway, am I the only person who LOVES photos where her favorite member looks like SHIT?

AKA old (OMG! 30+), wrinkled, without make-up, having a bad complexion, or the god-forbidden HUMAN?

BRING ON THE SEX!

Okay. Hyper random post done. And this is public because I would love strangers to read it. In fact, if you have random strangers please encourage them to because I would like to murder all fangirls who think "ICKY!" when they see that their beloved idol is not flawless. Now comment!

INDEFINITE HIATUS
I don't think it's necessary for me to explain why I've made this decision. You all know. A large part of the reason my hiatus extending so long was because this idea kept stepping into my field of vision and I wondered a lot about whether I could just leave LiveJournal and everyone here. My f-list is what has kept me here. Reading your entries, receiving your comments. But now I've become selfish. I really thought I would return soon, but I can't see that anymore. I'm not posting and I'm not commenting and I can't expect everyone to continue waiting. So... this is what it is.

I'm sorry to everyone I friended recently for barely getting to know you. To everyone I friended long ago for leaving so suddenly. And especially to hystric_honey for beginning a community with you and now abandoning it. What you do with cotton_candied is your decision, but if you need any help, please message me because I have no intention of just throwing the work on your shoulders alone.

okeilotus will NOT be deleted. My name may still appear in communities, but for most purposes, this journal is closed. I understand if you remove me from your f-list.

So, most of all...

I'M SORRY

Semi-Hiatus
I was hoping to avoid this, but I need to distance myself from this journal for a while. I'm still here. I'm still reading my f-list. And I'm still visiting communities. But lately I've been forcing myself to be here. I feel like this journal is weighing me down. Not everyone on my f-list. Not at all. I'm so grateful to have met everyone and I love reading your entries, but I have no will to comment or even reply to everyone's comments lately. It isn't even that I'm too busy now. I want to post and to comment, but I don't have the words to type.

So I'm stepping back until I clear my head. I may still comment from time to time, though, and I still have a bunch of icons to post if I feel motivated, so this is a "semi-hiatus," I promise. After all, I just returned from hiatus a month ago!

As some people have probably noticed, I've changed the header and color scheme for this journal (plus a matching friends only banner and default icon!). Yay!

Dark colors were different and I only changed a while ago, but I love my whites! The layout is the same, though.

Now featuring Shou of alice nine because I LOVE him, but I fail at fangirling, so he'll be loved this way.

Visit okeilotus to see the pretty.

And welcome to devilxjoker! I have ten friends now. Not many compared to everyone else, but at least I won't have to tag the same people for every meme.